I dedicate this entry to my best friend Jodi and in loving memory of her father, William Fourt.
Yes, I have been going through my own private hell for the past year and I know you have had plenty on your plate but for all the years we’ve been part of each others lives I’m not ready to give up. I know I’ve been a pain in your ass and you’ve been a pain in mine but that’s part of loving one another.
I am truly sorry for the loss of your father, Bill. I cannot imagine that pain and I don’t want to imagine it yet. I know you loved him and I think that may be part of why you got into photography and part of why you became friends with me. I was more-so a photographer in high school and less of an artist. Then of course I also got into radio like your Dad did. He was a pretty cool cat and I enjoyed his company when I got to see him.
I may not have been there for all the milestones but I have been there for parts. When the girls were first born and still in the nicu I remember going to Meriter Hospital to see you and them and how excited I was to hold them. I absolutely loved spending Christmas together with you and your family and helping the girls get to sleep.
I still have the video from when I came home for my birthday and stayed with you my last night. I had so much fun with the girls and you and I got to spend quality time together on your trampoline and stayed up all night talking. Then you did my makeup at like 4am. I love you Jodi and I love Eden and Emeri, my god-daughters and the two other God Mother’s I share the title with as well, Adalia and Anna.
You’ve always been important to me, I wear the pendant you gave me every day, remember what it says? “A True Friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.” I believe we both know the song in each others heart and I think we just need to remind each other what those words are.
In all my many moves I’ve always made sure tha the certain things are protected. I have the cherry blossoms on my dresser with the jewelry box from the baptism and have since framed the scroll you gave each of us which is also on my dresser. I do love you and the girls and I know it’s a difficult time and I want to be there for all of you.
I know a thing or two about loss, especially this past year and can tell you that I’m still grieving. It’s going to take time and there’s no one that can tell you how long you have to do it. Aside from losing my babies have my Uncle Louie and friend Steve to grieve for. I’m not saying I haven’t at all just that it’s ongoing.
So let me be there for you and let me help. Remember I do love you, we’ve known each other too long to stop now.